I’ve always had such a complex about my running pace. (I mean, just look at the name of my blog!). So as I stood at the starting line of Sunday’s race, I was terrified. A running friend asked if I’d like to run a race with her and I jumped at the opportunity. No one had ever asked me to run with them before! I was overcome with my usual insecurities; would I be able to keep up? Would I cramp? Would I slow her down?
At about the 4km mark, we slowed down quite a bit as she started to take strain. She had been struggling with a nasty flu bug from the week before and had misjudged how weak she still was. It had knocked her hard and she was not herself on the day. It happens and so we ended up just taking it easy.
Unbeknownst to her, I was tackling a lot of my own demons. It was only the second race that I was running since starting my running training with Coach Dave so I had no idea what my pace would be. But I felt super strong and confident. This is new.
This is what really mattered on the day:
- I’m able to run without having to stop and walk every 500m.
- I am definitely getting stronger.
- I don’t have to be terrified anymore.
- A day came when I was the strong one for a change.
- I don’t care what the finishing time was. To me, what mattered was running with my friend.
- Runners are a different breed. Why was I worried that she would leave me out on the course? Because I would never have done that to her.
My running priorities have definitely changed over the weeks since I’ve been attending track training. I signed up to run faster but as the weeks go by, things that I never thought of before make sense to me now. Such as managing to run and not walk as much as I used to. Such as finishing a race feeling strong. And knowing that some days it’s not about the time on my watch that defines what a great race is all about. Sometimes, it’s all about the company and facing those demons head on. Thanks Denise!
Awesome!! Glad you finished feeling strong 🙂
As usual reading your blog has echo’s of lessons in my life, I am not a runner and yet your truths as you discover and learn remind and teach me so much.
The company that walks next to me when I feel weakest is precious indeed.
Only your blog and the blog of Brene Brown make any sense to me at all, thanks very much for having the courage to share.
Liz, thanks for the feedback. and thank you! X