I’m officially on leave! I’ve taken advantage of the Easter break and taken some time off work. Boy do I need it!
You’d think that after 17 years of working in a corporate environment, I would have become accustomed to the hardness of the culture, the relentless drive by colleagues to succeed and the constant pressure to deliver. So why am I feeling so tired, over emotional and sensitive? It feels as if the smallest thing will tip me over the edge.
When I think about it, I must admit that it’s become too easy for me to go into work each day, put up with all the mess and stress and come home untouched. I make excuses for other people when they make decisions that I don’t agree with – it’s business after all. I allow them to talk so casually about people who cannot defend themselves – it’s dog eats dog folks. I choose to ignore the politics because I suspect it ‘helps’ people cope with their stress. I keep up a smiling, happy, positive face…all day long. It’s exhausting.
So this break could not have come at a better time. I need to stop, catch my breath and relax.
I plan to sit on the beach, squashing my feet in the sand and close my eyes to feel the sun on my face.
I will allow the smell and sound of the sea to wash over me and cleanse me.
I need to escape.